You may have heard the saying ignorance is bliss which may be true under certain circumstances, but when it comes to the effects of abuse, ignorance is not okay.
I viewed God through the lens of childhood abuse. I perceived God as mean, unloving and uncaring. I thought God loved other people, but I was different. He couldn’t love me because of the pain I went through. I brought this confusion about God into my parenting.
Self-worth is the underlying purpose of my blog: A Treasure and a Pearl. I wrote about self-worth in my very first blog back in August, 2015. If we say we believe something but our actions don’t match that belief, do we really believe it? We can have head knowledge but if it doesn’t travel down deep into our heart then we haven’t really embraced it. As a mother raising my children, I wasn’t aware I had an issue with self-worth.
In a previous blog I wrote about how I was recently becoming more aware of my gut feelings. However, as a parent raising my two daughters I did not have a good awareness of trusting my gut feelings. What I ended up doing was modeling decision-making that was probably a little wishy washy.