I am going to stay present in my life so I can stay out of denial and stay in reality. I need to care for myself. That will give me Peace and Hope. When I care for myself, I will have something to give to others.
You may have heard the saying ignorance is bliss which may be true under certain circumstances, but when it comes to the effects of abuse, ignorance is not okay.
I viewed God through the lens of childhood abuse. I perceived God as mean, unloving and uncaring. I thought God loved other people, but I was different. He couldn’t love me because of the pain I went through. I brought this confusion about God into my parenting.
Happy Fourth of July! You are loved! You are brave!